Thursday, April 06, 2006

Thanks for telling me how stupid and gullible I am. I mean, I should have gotten used to all these by now. You have been telling me that since forever anyway. Maybe that's why I really am like that. Stupid and gullible. And that I can never ever do anything right.

If you would like to know, yes! I do feel that way. Like I can't do anything right or say anything right. I don't know how and when to say the right things at the right time. If that was your goal, you have achieved it.

Thanks for the reminder about me being stupid and gullible and yet you're smart and oh-so-great. Really appreciated it. Maybe that's why I can never be outstanding in whatever I do because all the words that come out of your mouth are just words that cut. You really have no idea how much you've hurt me, haven't you? Do you know the number of scars you have left?

Everytime you hurl those hurtful insults without even thinking what it would do to a person. Do you know that it becomes a psychological problem after some time? But well, for me, it has been ALL MY LIFE! So why haven't I gotten used to it? Dammit! (pardon me) I feel so weak and useless everytime. Because if I said anything at all, IT'S HELL I'D GET!

And when's the last time you say anything encouraging to me? You know what?! I think it's never! I can never think of any one time that you have said anything nice or encouraging to me. Because everytime you speak, you just put me down. And so, I'm sorry to tell you that I CAN NEVER EVER BE THAT OUTSTANDING PERSON YOU WANT ME TO BE! Happy now?

The worst thing is that you NEVER EVER apologise for all that you say. Why, isn't it just obvious that you always think that you're right?!

-pissed-

mooo-ed
10:36 PM

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