Sunday, July 16, 2006

So, I stayed over at Cheryl's on Friday night with Daniel too. It was pretty unsuccesful because all of us were super tired. After awhile, we just plopped on the bed and fell asleep.

Anyways, I really want to post up the pictures of my trip. But I can't because my lappy's charger died on me so I can't use my laptop now.

I enjoyed the fellowship session after YA service yesterday. I thought it was really good. And Shin Yeong stayed over. It was quite unsuccessful too. Haha.

I thought Youth service today was great. Really. Pastor Ronald's sermon got me thinking. Do we just serve God because we are told to do so? Or do we serve God because we love Him? But besides that, even if we are not serving, do we really love God? We can never love God enough because we are only human. Look at our actions and words, do they show that we love God?

I really don't think I love God enough. Sometimes just because I feel tired, I cut down on my prayers and spending time with God. I don't think that shows that I love Him. And sometimes just because I feel sian, I talk and behave with an attitude, everyone would detest. I really depise myself for that ugly attitude, really.

During altar call, many people responded. And in my heart I was thinking to myself "Why do these people even bother responding? I doubt they really mean it anyway." But I was rebuked by the spirit. They probably really want to get right with God. And why they keep failing to walk their talk because humans are just so fallable. And then I was humbly reminded of how my walk with God was last time. I could say I love Him and want to be so close with Him but I just kept slipping away time and again. It is really by God's grace that I can keep coming back to Him building up our relationship together. God is really faithful.

It is a relationship. So it works both ways. We cannot expect God to always be the one the keeps pursuing us. I mean He does. He is still constantly pursuing us. But I think we really got to stop being such selfish christians. You know how even when God keeps pursuing us, we do not respond to the love that He gives. Let's move from self-centredness to God-centredness more each day. It isn't going to be easy letting go of EVERYTHING and clinging on to God ALONE. But I pray that by the empowerment of the Holy Spirit, we will overcome all things.

Dear God, I pray that it would really be our desire to know and love You more each day. In the process of knowing and loving You more, I pray that we will have the desire to be more like You. So Lord, You mould us and you change us. The process will not be easy and there will be a lot of trials along the way, but we know that we can trust and rely on You because of Your promise. Even though You did not promise us a life that is like a bed of roses, You promised us that You will never leave us, nor forsake us. Thank You Lord Jesus. Amen.

God loves us because He loves us. It isn't because we are good enough. We are NEVER good enough. We really do not deserve His love, grace and mercy, so don't take it for granted.

Even though everytime we say salvation is free, really, it is not. It is because someone has already paid the price for us and that is Jesus Christ. It is the most expensive gift anyone can ever receive. Think about it. (:

mooo-ed
11:23 PM

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