Monday, December 11, 2006
These words "the world can't take away Your love" have never been so real to me before until tonight when we sang the song "Sing (Your Love)". And I'll sing, singI love You soAnd I'll sing Because the world can't take away Your loveYou know, I really am in such awe right now, at how great our Father's love for us is. And I don't want that awe to go away. Whenever I think about His great love, I just want to cry because I know that I so do not deserve that unconditional love that He has for me.I too just want to be broken before Him again and again because His love for us is just so real and is so great to the extent that it isn't something we can comprehend. You need to experience it on your own. If not, you'll never be able to understand, no matter how much I or even others pour out to your guys.I really don't want to live life the way I am living now. It almost amounts to nothing. Even when I do my Quiet Time, I rush through it. What point is there then when I don't meditate on the Living Word of God and allow the Spirit to just minister to me? And when it comes to prayer, I don't wait on the Spirit. I just say what I want God to know and that's it. So where is the communication in that? Communication is a two-way thing. How can two people communicate when only one is talking?There are way too many distractions before me. I know I'm a dreamer and my mind has that capability to wander as far as it would go. No matter where or when. I need to fix my eyes on God.I know the fact that the closer I walk with God, the more the devil would want to come to destroy and play mind games, knowing that that is my weakest link. I know that I may miss a step and fall probably many times because I'm only human. I'm not perfect. I'm like everyone else. Christians and non-christians alike. But, you know what? I know that my God is so much greater than the devil and any of my fears. And I really just want to cling on to Jesus because He is my source of strength.I absolutely do not want this zeal and passion for God to die off because it just happens too often especially when I let my guard down. I know it won't be easy living for Christ. People might think that I'm weird and call me a church mouse or whatever, but seriously, I don't really bother anymore. Because in my life, I only have to please one person. And that person is God.I want to be molded and changed to be more like Christ everyday and also to know Him a little more everyday. I want my relationship with God to keep growing. I want an intimate relationship with Him. Yeaps. You heard me right. I said relationship. (: Not religion. Because christianity is about the relationship we have with God. It isn't just about a religion.I want to be a living testimony that shines for Christ. Yes, even in my family (which really is the toughest). I will try and must try my best. Especially with regards to my temper, attitude and stuff. But I am willing to try. I know I have made many bold statements today. I might not be able to live up to all of them. But I certainly will try to.Dear God, You know my heart. I really want to live for You. Please help me to. And when the going gets tough, teach me to cling on to You even more tightly than before. I need You, Lord. I really do. In Jesus' Name, I pray. Amen.If anyone of you are free on Tuesday and/or Wednesday night, do come down to Grace Assembly of God (Bukit Batok) for our night services for this conference that we are having. It starts at 7p.m and ends around 9p.m - 9.30p.m. But please do be there at about 6.30p.m because we have some fun activities before the service starts. Our church is located at the crossroads of Bukit Batok West Ave 4 and 7, just opposite the golf range. Do come down if you live around that area or if you have nothing on, on those evenings. I'm sure you'll be blessed too. Just give me a buzz if you're coming down. (:HAPPY BIRTHDAY PASTOR CUIXIAN!!GOD BLESS YOU. (:
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